Subliminal who?

Consistency is key right? I try to be as best as I can be...me.
So why does everyone always disappear? Get to close to the fire and you might get burned, but you'll learn; Love does not come lightly. I guess it takes a few minor burns to realize how to ignite whats right. Whatever am I speaking of? who knows? but like the smell of a freshly cut rose...
someone will know the scent that was sent...

My Camera...

I cant wait til my camera and I reunite, I let it cheat on me and I'm feeling so lost and forlorn, we've had such good times hanging out, loving the sun and watching gardens grow, Me and my camera were inseperable, sharing joys of new birth , capturing moments of  excitiment and making memories to last a lifetime. I have to forgive myself for letting my camera go, I'm longing to hold my camera again, caress it, embrace its creative beauty and love it more than ever before, Come home Camera, I need you!

Aware...of me.

Where am I right now?
Lost in my mind yet aware, held captive by my own hostage. Attempting to balance deranged and sane while floating in the atmoshere, I can't feel my feet here,
and my hands are tied, feeling like a part of me has died.
Fearful beyond fearless if that makes any kind of sense. My light shines from bright to dense,
I created this mess....I digress.
Closing myself in, shutting out the world and its noise, silencing self,
disappearing from reality as I become more aware of me,
hibernation mode, packing for the winter as I weigh heavier and heavier for protection,
solitary selection...but from who?...
from me! 
Aware but cant get free.
Pain streams tears of vanity, having all the answers but refuse to aknowledge sanity,
Drowning in a sea of  mixed emotions, sucked in deeper by the undercurrents spinning out of control,
feeling less than whole,
downward rapidly...I burden me.
Trying to swim from self but everywhere I go there I am
sinking in quicksand.
 Aware.

Answers come in the strangest ways...

I was writing a blog on my temporary navigators on my trip thru life, asking will I always be alone? or will there be a permanent navigator assigned to me to guide and direct me on the journey to final destination...I tried to post, it disappeared...I believe that sometimes we need to sit still and just listen... the answers come in the strangest ways...

Insight

I am learning more and more how God answers prayers. My momma use to always say, "Becareful what you ask for, you just might get it."  I prayed for God to help me become more in tune with the gift He has given me, this insight,or intuituition. Boy! was I ever asking for it?!

I am both anxious and excited, He allows me to see clearly, things I was so naive about so long ago I am well aware of now, I see it before it comes and clear it out of my path before it becomes an obstacle. Sometimes it hurts but in the long run it is much healthier. Thank you Father for being my ultimate caretaker!

Unconditional Acceptance

It is unfortunate that in this journey we will have to encounter darkness along the way, but I guess that is what helps us recognize and appreciate the light even more.
Learning to become more aware of our own actions and temperament.
Some dont even see their own darkness blinded too far to reach their light,consumed by this life, in so deep making them ignorant to their arrogance. All we can do is pray for their deliverance and our strength.

Our life is a gift, our outcome of where we end is determined by us and how well we utilize this gift, what we do with it, do we share it's blessing? do we love as we should by being the best we can be for He? (God)

There are those who will not understand our journey, they do not yet understand their own. Some seeds will be planted and take root growing fruitful while others will be washed away or carried off with the wind, but somehow, someway they will eventually land and reseed somewhere at sometime.

My best friends have been my best friends for 13 to 20 years, there is a reason for that!
Never a second guess, we never skip a beat, no matter time nor distance. I love them each dearly for loving me and accepting me...unconditionally.

My New Camera...

I'm pretty excited! I wanted a digital camera so bad. Walal!ask and you shall receive, my son bought me one for my birthday. And now...
My travel tools in around and out of town: My journal, my laptop, and my camera (with HD video recording) OH YEAH!

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