Sunday, August 12, 2012

Dumb down for love?

In regards to dating websites, I admit I've tried a couple and was very honest about who I am (outside of the entertainment life) I figure that can come in later discussion, I don't want to attract the wrong intentions. Anyway, one thing I notice is the men "out there" are still pretty much looking for "young hot thangs" it seems. Not very practical if they are expecting something meaningful to transpire, I am authentic in who I am , intelligent and some may say deep. Spirituality is key and very important to me, we must be able to communicate on a level of stimulation both spiritually and mentally that helps us both to grow. I have seen many friends end up with broken hearts, bank accounts depleted and a hatred form. And then can't figure out where they went wrong. I mean let's be honest really ladies and gentlemen, what exactly are you looking for when you are looking? That "dime piece"? (who by the way can't even cook) or "Mr. Rich and yet still wonderful"? Our society is purely motivated by looks and money, where is the spirituality at? Without spirituality you are doomed from the beginning. Don't get me wrong I have to be physically attracted just as much as the next person, but we must look deeper, see the soul,& feel the energy. How do they treat family? friends? animals? Are they selfish? rude? arrogant? Does their pictures display a personality of "it's all about me"? or perhaps every part on their body with nothing left to the imagination? There is a way to be sensual and sexy yet still tasteful. Perhaps if we took more pride in who we are as individuals we would realize that we deserve so much more than a quick fix of meaningless sex, which in some cases might be okay but in the end I believe we all really want someone to be respected and loved by unconditionally. I wasn't getting alot of action on the website I chose and my friend said maybe I should show a softer side of me, that because I am strong, and deep, it might be somewhat intimidating. I figure if a man is intimidated by my spirit he is definitely NOT the one for me and the right one will step up and help this Queen build the Kingdom.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Out of touch

My cipher upset, needing a reset as my mind winds round the concept of what's next? Thoughts run rampid but forced to sit still and still I yearn to burn the candle at both ends dimly lit asking for the light of what's right? I cannot see right before me... where the answers be. Why must I continue to ask instead of grasp the truth that I keep ignoring, feeling like life is constantly boring wanting more but filled with so much, why do I keep losing touch?