You have no idea!

I wonder what it would take, because YOU inspire me... http://youtu.be/-bqM5JniUHc

She's almost 16...

Unique, Extremely comfortable in her own skin, defiant and witty, quirky, and intelligent.
Sometimes too smart for her own good and plays dumb. Oh yes, she knows how to play.

Alot like me in so many ways, but hardly naive, so informed and intuned to the world surrounding. So open and free it scares me. What am I going to do with her?
 How will I mold her? I am still learning.

Spiritual Journey...

I am loving where I am in life, currently evolving, and traveling this new Spiritual journey...

I am waking earlier making the most out of this gift our creator has given me...Inhale, exhale...Life!

Cleansing body with a tall cup of lemon water , rejuvenating, so I may function clearly,
now... move into the mind, clearing, making way for the SOUL to expand and nurture.

2 miles in, breathe, stretch, meditate, listen.

Taking time to connect to where we have come from, remembering... reflecting.

I am at peace. Let the rest of my life begin!

Audience or Performer?

Why do we have problem holding our own selves back, become stuck in our mental, talking ourselves out of proceeding?...the fear of success? or is it the fear of failure?

Where does this fear come from? Afetr all it is just False Evidence Appearing Real. And why do we doubt ourselves?

We see people accomplish goals and achieve dreams all the time so what makes them so much better than us?  in reality, that may not exactly be the case. Others have just finally let go and went for what they know. I believe it's drive and passion for what we really desire, you gotta want it bad enough!

Get out of your head and feel with your heart, You can continue to sit back in the audience or take to the stage and shine? so, WHAT YOU GONNA DO?

Subliminal who?

Consistency is key right? I try to be as best as I can be...me.
So why does everyone always disappear? Get to close to the fire and you might get burned, but you'll learn; Love does not come lightly. I guess it takes a few minor burns to realize how to ignite whats right. Whatever am I speaking of? who knows? but like the smell of a freshly cut rose...
someone will know the scent that was sent...

My Camera...

I cant wait til my camera and I reunite, I let it cheat on me and I'm feeling so lost and forlorn, we've had such good times hanging out, loving the sun and watching gardens grow, Me and my camera were inseperable, sharing joys of new birth , capturing moments of  excitiment and making memories to last a lifetime. I have to forgive myself for letting my camera go, I'm longing to hold my camera again, caress it, embrace its creative beauty and love it more than ever before, Come home Camera, I need you!

Aware...of me.

Where am I right now?
Lost in my mind yet aware, held captive by my own hostage. Attempting to balance deranged and sane while floating in the atmoshere, I can't feel my feet here,
and my hands are tied, feeling like a part of me has died.
Fearful beyond fearless if that makes any kind of sense. My light shines from bright to dense,
I created this mess....I digress.
Closing myself in, shutting out the world and its noise, silencing self,
disappearing from reality as I become more aware of me,
hibernation mode, packing for the winter as I weigh heavier and heavier for protection,
solitary selection...but from who?...
from me! 
Aware but cant get free.
Pain streams tears of vanity, having all the answers but refuse to aknowledge sanity,
Drowning in a sea of  mixed emotions, sucked in deeper by the undercurrents spinning out of control,
feeling less than whole,
downward rapidly...I burden me.
Trying to swim from self but everywhere I go there I am
sinking in quicksand.
 Aware.