In LOVE...

Have you ever been in love...alone? I am a lover! a hopeless romantic with the most creative imagination ever...I am in love with life! I am in love with big fluffy cotton candy clouds tasting my spirit, I am in love with raindrops dancing on me naked and ocean tides massaging the SOULS of my feet. I am in love with the birth of sunrises and kissing sunsets good evening but never good bye because there is always another rhyme in time and I look forward to hearing the Angels sing sweet melodies in the trees while swaying to the rhythms of hope. I am in love with sharing fantasies and building dreams, creating tomorrows yesterdays memories. I am in love with love and look forward to the possibilities of dancing to the beat of love being in love with me too.

alone, loudly, silently...

Right now...I feel empty. Wanting to be full again...full of ambition, full of smiles, full of hope...full of love. Right now, I feel these walls are closing in on me, restless, unable to proceed because I am too tired. Tired of feeling empty. This room is empty. All I hear is the loud silence and a nearby trickle of the fish tank hoping it will drown out the fact that I am here alone. and I feel... alone. I am quickly reminded by my inner self that I am never alone and that we are in this together and we argue, loudly, silently. Battling forces inside of both dark versus light, I say that God has forsaken me, my inner self says I am a fool and I guess I blame my ego for being so bold as to think that I am bigger than faith. That I am to big to follow and try too hard to lead and this is where I feel I have been forgotten. As I step backwards into the shadows out of the way , and remain silent. The silence is empty, no heartbeat to pump oxygen, no air, for me to breathe. I am suffocating here loudly, silently. Clawing my way thru any crevice of life that I can grasp. Inhaling deeply to survive. Painting on a smile and afraid to exhale because my tears will tell all there is to tell, as they begin pour loudly, silently....Can anybody hear me?

Back again with my tablet and a pen...

Okay, well....it's more like a laptop and my fingers (smh) modern day technology has got the best of me, ...however, quite often I still prefer writing, as it does something to my soul, something soothing & relaxing,.... I find that while I am on the computer, I am easily distracted by social media which in all actuality has interfered or hindered really being social. but anyway what am I really talking about here?...Perhaps "Old habits die hard" or is it a meaning of something deeper? subliminal? somewhere hidden between the lines like The Matrix? I mean what was that all about anyway? I have watched this movie 3 times in addition to all of the sequels still seeking for more meaning and still catching things I may have previously missed every other time. I don't believe I will ever figure it all out completely and like life, perhaps that is what it is meant to be. Enjoying the newness of every moment, every lesson learned, every new adventure. In our American society, we want to put everything in a box, categorize it, label it, stereotype it. Why?...Why cant't everything just BE? why can't we just BE? When people say they are seeking a deeper meaning in life are they saying their life is meaningless? or have we just not realized our purpose and potential? We want more but yet, we are so much more but remain so shallow. We want big cars, big houses, big bank accounts and bigger boobs, when will we ever be completely satisfied? So no, this post isn't really about anything at all...or is it? it could be about everything...and every one.

Dumb down for love?

In regards to dating websites, I admit I've tried a couple and was very honest about who I am (outside of the entertainment life) I figure that can come in later discussion, I don't want to attract the wrong intentions. Anyway, one thing I notice is the men "out there" are still pretty much looking for "young hot thangs" it seems. Not very practical if they are expecting something meaningful to transpire, I am authentic in who I am , intelligent and some may say deep. Spirituality is key and very important to me, we must be able to communicate on a level of stimulation both spiritually and mentally that helps us both to grow. I have seen many friends end up with broken hearts, bank accounts depleted and a hatred form. And then can't figure out where they went wrong. I mean let's be honest really ladies and gentlemen, what exactly are you looking for when you are looking? That "dime piece"? (who by the way can't even cook) or "Mr. Rich and yet still wonderful"? Our society is purely motivated by looks and money, where is the spirituality at? Without spirituality you are doomed from the beginning. Don't get me wrong I have to be physically attracted just as much as the next person, but we must look deeper, see the soul,& feel the energy. How do they treat family? friends? animals? Are they selfish? rude? arrogant? Does their pictures display a personality of "it's all about me"? or perhaps every part on their body with nothing left to the imagination? There is a way to be sensual and sexy yet still tasteful. Perhaps if we took more pride in who we are as individuals we would realize that we deserve so much more than a quick fix of meaningless sex, which in some cases might be okay but in the end I believe we all really want someone to be respected and loved by unconditionally. I wasn't getting alot of action on the website I chose and my friend said maybe I should show a softer side of me, that because I am strong, and deep, it might be somewhat intimidating. I figure if a man is intimidated by my spirit he is definitely NOT the one for me and the right one will step up and help this Queen build the Kingdom.

Out of touch

My cipher upset, needing a reset as my mind winds round the concept of what's next? Thoughts run rampid but forced to sit still and still I yearn to burn the candle at both ends dimly lit asking for the light of what's right? I cannot see right before me... where the answers be. Why must I continue to ask instead of grasp the truth that I keep ignoring, feeling like life is constantly boring wanting more but filled with so much, why do I keep losing touch?

We plan...

We plan and then there is God's plan. Learning to surrender & trust completely is one of life's hardest tasks only because we make it so. "It could all be so simple but we choose to make it hard"

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